Sunday Fun Day . . .

lazy lazy sunday are our special-tay
for sundaY, sunday fun day!

johnny on the couch
bette davis bats her spider eyes
in black and white
jess and i slouch in white robes
fluffy, coffee

got the rundown for the fantasy matchups
i have no chance
its a learning year
its down to johnny and jess
to win the division
to kick da boys butts
or the amazings
i take on empire of doom
with his hip chugging foot soldier pic

if i win
i'll hip chug all over flatbush!

Waiting for Thunder

i'm sitting here, luxuriating in my after work ritual of checking email, facebook, and myspace; browsing my friends' blogs, seeing what online news i can tolerate sitting still long enough to read (how has my attention span deteriorated so?).

i'm sitting here, slightly sticky from the thunderstorm that's been coming on all day, sweaty beer on the table, listening to jesse play tiger woods' pga golf game on X-Box .

it's slightly adorable.

i can hear the roar of the pga crowd, the digitally enhanced whubahmp whubahmp of tiger's heart beat as he pauses before a putt, -- and jesse is talking back to the tv screen, groaning with the crowd, raising a single fist to the air as he sinks his shots

this is a fabulous course - he says, not taking his eyes from the rolling hills of the recreated st andrews, the treacherous bunkers that snap and grab for his ball . . .

ooh! he's caught me looking, now he keeps glancing over at me, the yuengling raised to his lips.

whatcha doin, hon?

nothing . . . writing . . .a post

oh, nice.

we both look back and catch each other's eyes, holding them longer this time, two smiles.

i am slightly sticky, surrounded by corn still in its husks that waits for the grill, a small watermelon, my half-drunk tasty beverage, my sweety on the couch, kicking tiger's ass on the green.

I've Been Tagged . . .

So, Faithy's been gently pokin at me for a while to get this "meme" thing done - I'm not sure I even really know what "meme" means yet - me me? Coming up with "8 random facts" about yourself is slightly nerve-wracking - the attempt to strike a satisfactory balance between humor, candor, and brevity, while avoiding self-pity, unnecessary embarrassment, and being downright boring! So here goes . . . .

P.S. these are not in any order - aka #1 is no more exciting than #8 and vice versa


8. I enjoy being in the city (go Brooklyn!) but can't wait to move to somewhere I can see the stars.

7. I love belting showtunes and pop songs a lot more than I actually let on in every day life. (I tend to reserve such occasions for karaoke bars and when I've got the house to myself.)

6. I love the smell of skunk.

5. I want a pet mouse/rat whom I could name Octavia E. after one of my favorite authors.

4. I am becoming more and more girly in my old age.

3. I am marrying my sweetheart this coming October.

2. My two younger sisters took me on a surprise mission to get my ears pierced (for the first time) on my 23rd birthday - I was nervous sitting in the chair, it pinched and hurt a little, and I love them!

1. I am pretty lazy - I need a kick in the butt to make the time for the things that I love (dance, writing, singing, exercise).


Rules:
1. Each player starts with 8 random facts about themselves.
2. People who are tagged write a blog post about their 8 random things and post the rules.
3. At the end of your post you need to tag 8 people and post their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment and tell them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.


Whew! So I am breaking the rules because I don't know that many people with blogs! I tag Jesse and John because they are my roomies. Beyond that, I don't know, can I tag through facebook or myspace?

I am pretty internet illiterate - that should be #9!

Billy the Kid

William Bonney, to his mother.

Billy, to the ladies.

Billy the Kid to all those who knew his legend.

Billy burned out his eyes in the southwest wasteland, cut the teeth of his gun on the lawmen, indians, old friends. Got so good he knew how to shoot to kill a man, to make it quick, or not.

Explode it under the heart, stops the breathing even as they fall.

I think I might be Sallie on the Chisum ranch, watching Billy come and go, my barefeet blowing in the wind on the porch, biscuits and gravy and black midnight coffee for my friend, the outlaw, my man and I watching Billy, silent as he comes, a few new holes in him, silent as he goes, patched up some. We dont' ask where or what he does between waving to the back of his horse and greeting the front. No judgements; just Billy. He breathes between his teeth; takes his hat off indoors.

Lots been written about you, Billy the Kid;

here's one more.

Things I Don't Want to Forget

walking home after a long day of work down our dirty, pot-holed, dead-end street; not realizing my head had been cast down til I held it up and saw, all in one glance, our landlady's garden oasis, the stoop, dripping with the greens and purples and reds and yellows of impatients, nasturnium, pansies, asyllium, palms, and one big red crab-shaped sandbox . . . .


that first glance of the cherry tree esplanade in full bloom at the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens as Jesse led me up the winding path . . . .


yawning tulips, striped, curled, raw-edged, smooth, always open, never uniform . . .


the old jewish man, hat in his hand, pausing under a smallish tree; the white of his hair and the black of his coat perfectly matching the tree's white blossoms and darkly contrasting limbs and trunk; i hid on the other side of the tree, pretending to smell a fluffy branch in order to watch him blending into the tree; when he was gone, i walked back and stooped to read the carefully placed tag: Mary Potter Flowering CrabApple . . .


the young woman, girlish with her camera, back up against an exploding cherry tree in her pink skirt, black top - she looked like a cherry tree herself, and i offered to take her picture for her . . .


the sight of jesse conducting an as yet uncomposed symphany of scents inside the lilac grove; his nose and cheeks buried in the white, purple, pinkly curled trees . . .






the raw, raw green of the newest trees . . .

Life After Kids . . .

So, this is what happens when you leave your parents to their own devices - they run off and become pirates.

Is this just about the greatest picture ever? Too bad you can't hear the "arrgghh" Dad was making as the shutter snapped.

Sometimes I worry that my parents will be lonely with three girls away from home, at college and beyond. I really shouldn't - it seems everytime I call they're dining with friends at new restaurants, taking in stray cats (whom they've now dubbed "The Kids"), and galavating around Hunterdon County in swashbuckling attire - and dont' think mom is innocent in this; she's the one who dressed him!

All this fun they're having makes it seem all the more vital that Jess and I expedite the retrieval of our case(s) of Finger Lakes wine we've been storing in Jersey, on the premise of waiting till we found a car with which to cart it back to Brooklyn.

What scallywags could resist such prize booty??!!

Circus Kitties

Tried to train the cats today - Oscar and Lucy, the ultimate odd couple.

To better aid in the telling of this story, a couple of mental kitty portraits may help: Oscar is a fluffy, tiger-striped, slightly pudgy boy cat; Lucy is an anxious, tiny girl cat, snow-bunny white from the tops of her ears to the constantly ticking tip of her tail. The two alternate between devastatingly adorable snugglege and tempestuous brawls always consisting of Oscar exerting just enough effort to maintain his dominance over itty bitty Lucy. Lucy-Bitch we call her a lot. But not because she's Oscar's bitch - because she's a bitch. Period.

Anyway, Oscar has this cute habit of balancing up onto his hind legs, circus bear-like, in order to push his head up underneath a tantalizingly dangling hand, the curl of fingers a cat-speak "allioop!" So I attempted this afternoon, rare sunlight streaming the windows of our dead-end street apartment, to train both Lucy and Oscar to perform this feat on command. Miserable failure sounds harsh, but, there it be.

Having no designated cat "treats," I decided to use their usual food as my training tool of choice. Unfortunately, the cats were so excited by the prospect of a possible previously unscheduled feeding, that they wouldn't leave their food dishes, swishing and swirling amongst our cast-off shoes, rubbing up against them and each other. When I'd finally lured them away from their still empty dishes, Lucy seemed to show a thinly-veiled disdain for my high-pitched yippings and jerky hand movements, trying to signal "up, up!" Oscar, who as I said has done the trick on his own before, seemed too stupid to understand what I was trying to do. He sat and stared, blankly, stooping to eat bits of food off the floor whenever my arms movements became enthusiastic enough to let escape any kernels of the fishy smelling stuff.

My circus-ring yips getting fainter, more exasperated, I gave up and threw a bit of food in both their bowls, if only to get their uncooperative behinds out of my sight. Lucy-Bitch indeed.

blogging out loud

Blogging is like talking out loud - something I've never been totally comfortable doing. I'd rather think, write, re-write, edit, mold, tinker, tuck, pinch, nip, plump, cajole, convince the words I'm using to say what I want. If it needs to be written in less than an hour, I won't bother. Or at least, not till now. This is a new goal of mine - to be comfortable with the quickly jotted down word, the true snippet, the casual thought. Not everything needs to be born of divine inspiration. I think that way I will play more, write more, breathe more, get back in the groove. Feel like I can use my tool again. Get excited about it again. Make it a viable, present, working part of my life - give it greater precidence in my life than, say, the slightly depressing, partially maddening, pays-the-bills-job that I am grateful, resentful of. On, that lovely prepositional ending, good night. Off to West Wing it is!

Poem for a Saturday in Spring

walk through the park
see the magnolia trees in bloom?
walk to the gardens
6/15 community gardens
walk to 9th street station
you bought me a chocolate-filled croissant
(even though you thought it wasn't healthy)
walk down seventh ave to johnny's bar
it's early - i'm the first customer
i have no money
so johnny pours me glassfuls of ice cold water
from behind the bar
he prepares for the day
especially for margaritas
lime juice to wet the glass
big kosher salt to coat the rim
squeezer at the ready
he chops lemon and lime wedges while he talks
hair swinging about his chin and cheeks
slice off one end, then the other
stand the lemon/lime on one juicy cut end
slice it down the middle
notch the two halves in their center
where the seeds would be
lay the lemon/limes cut face down
slice them crosswise
into happy lemon/lime smiles
that will grin down onto salty coated rims
i pay for my water with a wave
get down off my stool, coat on
linger in the doorway
walk out into the sunshine
it's time to get a haircut
do my taxes
go to the gym
dig up the garden
clean up my room
sweep the house
(it is my turn on the schedule)
mail some magnets
do the dishes
go to the movies
crawl up to bed
my head two feet from the ceiling
close my eyes
bathed in the moonlight that is the
back alley street light
that soon will be broken
by us
with rocks

A Whale Bone in the Moonlight

I dreamed I came upon a whale bone in the moonlight, massive, glistening. Thrust up on shore by moon-tide forces, this fierce-white relic arced from sand to starry sky, throwing salty whisperings, deep blue watery thoughts. The speckled black above took in this glowing, silent sight, and, commencing whisperings of its own, let fall like gentle dust the secrets of the night. And the whale bone, now so delicately entombed, seemed to heave a tender sigh before dissolving into sand and quiet sea and sky.

our christmas tree

our christmas tree is old and dry
the white cat sleeps under it
on top of a dark old towel
now fur-covered white

our christmas tree is old and dry
and smells so so sweet